at mom n dads place

my mom got hurt, while i was visiting my church. I am not a doctor, but she says she can't stand up. :-(

there has been too much negative news for me to keep happy. I've stopped trying to tell truth from fiction. recently I've taken to pinching my cheeks, as well as drinking diet (phenylalanine) drinks. normally a few diet sodas is enough to cause a headache, but i think my meds changed that, since i only felt the headaches once. :-(

games aren't feeling that fun over the past hospitalization. the internet still draws me towards it, despite my paranoia to just jump ship and never use the internet again. my current meds also affected my eyes to read i now need to take off or look around my lenses. :-(

my meds are also conflicted, the information says two of my meds should not be used together. i tried fixing that on my own, but i was powerless to get the change through. :-(

wierdest part of my time is reading. i could almost swear that the words i was reading in an old fasion paper book were being written by two or more entities trying to controll reality. I think I know the reason for that. call me paranoid, but if video games could control living beings or self aware programs, if not living beings... well then in that case my gaming ways would have been very hard. :-o

anyways to be totally honest I've been having the best time of my life since i quit gaming and had a chance to avoid the internet. ;-)

I also apologise for monsanto's GM foods, the GM rice, the GM soy the GM corn etc. as well as 'viral mind control' by cats*. I would like to think that all of that was just part of a dream or a game. however, ignoring problems does not fix them. in my sci-fi filled head the best solution is to use basic nano bots use a secure frequency and purge infected animals and plants. aving the ocean life is a bit trickier but we do have nuclear submarines people, that could be used perhapse along with existing ocean transport lanes to provide broadcasted purge of the poison DNA viruses. maybe i watch too much sci fi. ;-\

* = not that i did that myself i did however imagine it after reading /.

welcome to my new blog

this is my third blog now. the first one was on my old bsd webserver the dot my second, now this is my third.

I apologize for the mistakes I've made, the past is over and done with.

I am trying to take life a little slower. I'm weaning myself off the internet addiction, but at the same time i feel like my blog needs updating to reflect the changes in my values and my priories.